41: happy birthday leah

jam lin cher

infinty pool

becky

shower dance

party

jam rach

SUNSET WHEEE

lin and I

LEAH!!!!!!!!! happy birthday bub

rach and I

duck face #1

duck face #2

jacuzzi

sad kids sitting by the jacuzzi

wheee

fun fun fun

12mn

roaming around mbs till 130am

should seriously be studying :(

have a great sunday everyone

40

Sunday. The day I should be resting and not having to get out of bed too early to do work or sleeping late at night to finish work. But of course, laziness comes and overwhelms me and I end up lying in bed all afternoon feeling like a bossss (even tho I shouldn't). Anxiety. I used to be scared and feel crazy upset every Sunday. After awhile, it just went away but today, it's back again. I'm not sure if it's just me being paranoid or the fact that I know something's gonna happen that's why I'm feeling so horrible. Maybe this isn't a very private place for me to say what I feel but whatever. Today I woke up at 8. Despite 11 hours of sleep, didn't feel like a champion after waking up. Felt like my heart was pounding rly fast and I just laid there and thought about things. Which then brought me to an even more horrible state, I ended up crying. Lol yeah Lyssa's such a crybaby....all she ever does to get things solved is to cry. Well how about you try being me and tell me if it's so easy. Did you have to lose your father when you were just 5? Did your mother have to scrimp and save just to give you a good life? Many people ask me how I survive without my mom working now....I tell them. God's grace. I might not be the richest person in the world. But gaining God's love? Makes me the richest person in the world. Back to why I was crying - life is as such. I go to school come home dead tired, take a nap and then regret taking a nap because I should've studied. Cycle repeats for next four days. And then start feeling inadequate because I'm never good enough. Never good enough in my studies, ballet or netball or even anyone. jamie/rach/rbk/bink/jill/cher/leah/lin/af - crazy smart and pretty and then there's me, not pretty not smart not hardworking. Insecure much? Totally. Not being good enough kills me all the time because I'm always second to anyone. It has happened so many times and sometimes I guess I trust someone that I've known for such a short time (< a year thereabouts) I'm the one that ends up broken. Upset and feeling lonesome. Such is life. Oh well.
Motto of the year? Keep calm and trust God.

/edit/ oh and, no more boy troubles for the year, +happy points on this sad sunday

39: read at own risk it's crazy lengthy

Hi so I guess I haven't been on here in a really long time but I just decided to blog today because....just because.

Oh wow I just went back to check the last time I posted and it was 2 months ago whooop.
Life has been...well rather draining and interesting, stuff happened, and well we're already in the fourth month of 2012. Before we realise it, 2012 is gonna be over.

what I've been doing for the past month (march to april)
to be completely honest I don't recall much, but I'll just type what I remember.

- tore a tiny ligament in my thumb

- had my ballet grade 8

- grandma got admitted (and now she's staying with us till her maid comes)

- bandage with bink and running away from a certain someone

- lost a friend, idek if we are friends now seeing as things have changed as of friday

- spent the march holidays in school, mon-sat

- went to lewu close to once/twice every week

- ate a lot of tauhuey

- finally got my kanken in the mail

- meeting becky's amusing physio

- played our last nationals game, and won 

 

 

- finally caught wicked!

- celebrated kor's birthday with twelvecupcakes (ABSOLUTE LUVVVV)

- shopped....a lot.

- had a crazy amount of weird dreams (SHALL ELABORATE ON THIS SOON)

- GOT ADDICTED TO GOLDEN OREOS!!!!

YES YES YES ALL MY PHOTOS ARE FROM MY INSTAGRAM @lyssawong BECAUSE I AM TOO LAZY TO BRING ANY OF MY CAMERAS OUT

ANYWAY ABOUT MY WEIRD DREAMS:

1) I got pregnant.

I don't remember the exact details but well yes before I woke up I was already on my way to the delivery room, and I woke up rubbing tummy.....what the heck right?
I think it got me into a good mood for the rest of the day though I was so amused by my dream I was happy the whole day. Not sure why I was so amused about getting pregnant though.....HAHAHAHAHA and when I told Mama Wong this was her response: "and may I ask, who is the father?!" She is beginning to suspect I have a boyfriend. Tragedy.

2) Visualized a whole game that hasn't even happened yet.

Woke up this morning and my heart was beating super fast and what was my dream about?????
My junior's crucial match that's happening tmr. My dream was about the whole game and at third quarter the score was 8-8. I got woken up by le momma before the match could end. Oh well, we'll see what happens tomorrow. 

END OF RETARDED DREAMS WHY DID I EVEN ELABORATE ON THEM LOL

March/April has been fun and been a crazy emotional rollercoaster ride, I've come to understand that in some points of our lives we will lose friends and we just have to build a bridge and get over it, buttttttt I must thank lin and af for constantly listening to me muax luv u two! 

Spent the morning of Good Friday at home, went to CHC with Becky and had dinner + htht with Sarah :-) Nua-ed the whole of Saturday morning and afternoon, studied at night till 1130. 

Nua-ed today as well, surprise surprise. 

On a happier note, half day on Friday because of Prefect's Commendation and watching R&J with the lit class on Saturday!  

AAAAAND THE MBS SUITE AWAITS 456 BABY 20TH-21ST APRIL IS GON BE A BLAST!!!!!!! well then a week to midyears oh joy

this has been a lengthy post

bye

edit: IDK WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY FORMATTING BUT YA LA BEAR WITH IT K THX