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haven't been here in awhile, spent time catching up on life.

BAOC was last week and even though the first day made me feel pretty miserable, I'm thankful that the following two days went rather smoothly. 

School was supposed to start today but since Week 1 is tutorial free and I only have tutorials on Monday, I'm spending my last free day just settling the textbook issues and reading through lecture materials.

Kind of excited but worried for school to start tmr since 1) I don't know my classmates 2) I know some people in my course but I don't even talk to them so I'll probably be a loner during lecture tmr, but that's fine by me.

On to happier things, Becky planned for us (rach leah and I) to surprise Lin on Saturday and I would say it was kind of a success and I don't have photos on my phone and all but it was an enjoyable day I hope you had a great Lin ^~^ went to church after that and the video sermon spoke to me so much during response I was throughly overwhelmed and I think if I weren't around so many people I would've ugly-cried. Thankful for the CG <3 <3 <3

Anyway, I think this is the right time for me to properly admit that I'm afraid. I'm so afraid of what's to come after tomorrow happens, how my classmates will be like. The very thought of going into lecture tomorrow alone scares me. I think I've told some of my friends that I don't care if I make friends or not because I need to work hard and study anyway and I don't have to strive to fit in to people's wants and needs. Tomorrow is about to come, and I'll be okay. I hope.

~random ramblings and excessive feeeels~